Mustafa Kemal Ers\u00f6z<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2018\u2019 Yanm\u0131\u015f bir bilete, olas\u0131l\u0131klara ve bir tan\u0131d\u0131\u011fa\u2019\u2019<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Bu metin \u00fczerine \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flamadan \u00f6nce bir m\u00fchlet g\u00fcne\u015fin alt\u0131nda oturdum. G\u00fcne\u015fi g\u00f6rd\u00fc m\u00fc bir tabure bulup g\u00fcne\u015flenmek ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131k alametlerinden biri olsa gerek zira eskiye nazaran daha \u00e7ok \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum. H\u00fclasa nisan g\u00fcne\u015finin teredd\u00fctt\u00fc kemiklerimi \u0131s\u0131t\u0131rken kendimi bir kez daha ge\u00e7mi\u015fin muhasebesine, m\u00fcstakbelin hesab\u0131na dalm\u0131\u015f efkarlar i\u00e7inde buldum. Bu efk\u00e2r deryas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131\u011f dalgalar\u0131 aras\u0131nda \u00f6yle y\u00f6ns\u00fcz, menzilsiz sal\u0131n\u0131rken nihayet \u015fu an\u0131ma ili\u015fkin kelimenin bir di\u011fer yan anlam\u0131yla efkarlanmama neden olan bir ger\u00e7e\u011fi fark ettim ki g\u00fcn ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e zihinsel kapasitem neredeyse kar\u015f\u0131 konulmaz bir s\u00fcratle erozyona u\u011fruyor, duygu d\u00fcnyam g\u00fcnden g\u00fcne \u00e7orakla\u015f\u0131yor. Art\u0131k d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken, konu\u015furken kelimelerimi bulabilmek i\u00e7in uzun esler vermem gerekiyor, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerimi toparlayabilmek, pe\u015f pe\u015fe dizebilmek i\u00e7in bir s\u00fcre sessizle\u015fip kendime d\u00f6nmem gerekiyor. Bunu o serin nisan g\u00fcne\u015finin alt\u0131nda \u00fcz\u00fcc\u00fc bir \u015fekilde fark ettim. <\/em><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Di\u011fer yandan bir zamanlar ki\u015fisel g\u00fcndemimi b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fgal eden neredeyse sabahtan ak\u015fama i\u015ftiyak ve \u015fehvetle ha\u015f\u0131r ne\u015fir oldu\u011fum d\u00fcnya ahvaline, toplumsal ve siyasal geli\u015fmelere kar\u015f\u0131 epey bir vakittir tamamen big\u00e2ne kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hatta t\u00fcm bunlardan d\u00fcped\u00fcz bihaber oldu\u011fumu fark ettim. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler i\u00e7eresinde sin\u00fczit a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n iyiden iyiye kendini hissettirdi\u011fi bir an eski ve \u00e7ok k\u0131ymetli bir dostumla denizin kenar\u0131ndaki bir hat\u0131ram\u0131 an\u0131msay\u0131verdim. \u0130lk gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n hat\u0131r\u0131 say\u0131l\u0131r bir b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc birlikte ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz \u015fahsi ayd\u0131nlanma ser\u00fcvenimde esasl\u0131 bir yer tutan sevgili dostum bana soracak olursan\u0131z hararetle s\u00fcren ama muhtemelen kar\u015f\u0131 taraf i\u00e7in bezdirici bir monologdan ibarete olan sohbetimizin orta yerinde s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc kesip k\u00fcsk\u00fcn bir s\u00fck\u00fbnetle \u2013 \u2018\u2019 Mustafa bu anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015feyler art\u0131k bana \u00e7ok uzak ve bunlar hakk\u0131nda neredeyse hi\u00e7bir \u015fey bilmiyorum dahas\u0131 hi\u00e7 ilgimi de \u00e7ekmiyorlar\u2019\u2019 deyivermi\u015fti. O an aram\u0131zda \u00e7izilen bu kati huduttan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fc bir miktar g\u00fccenmi\u015f, bu s\u00f6zleri kendi nam\u0131ma birlikte ge\u00e7irdi\u011fimiz y\u0131llar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 k\u0131ymetsizle\u015ftiren bir hakaret olarak telakki etmi\u015f hatta haddim olmadan dostum ad\u0131na \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. Onun bu bence erken vazge\u00e7mi\u015fli\u011fi ben de bir k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131k hissi uyand\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Mamafih inmesi gereken dura\u011f\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rmay\u0131 adet edinmi\u015f biri olarak ben; \u015fu an k\u0131ymetli arkada\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7ok iyi anl\u0131yor dahas\u0131 ona tastamam hak veriyorum. <\/em><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Galiba ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n bezgin alametlerinden biri de \u00fczerinde biraz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce herkese ve her \u015feye hak vermek olsa gerek. Ama bunun i\u00e7in gerek\u00e7elerim var. \u00d6yle ki bir m\u00fchlettir benim de hayat\u0131m ve hayata dair t\u00fcm tasa ve d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerim dar \u00e7evrem hatta sadece kendi g\u00fcnl\u00fck ia\u015femle s\u0131n\u0131rl\u0131 durumda ve daha fazlas\u0131 i\u00e7in ne kendimde ne de ya\u015fant\u0131mda bir yer a\u00e7am\u0131yor; hatta a\u00e7mak istemiyorum. Kredi taksitleri, gelir vergileri ve ge\u00e7ici vergiler, kredi kart\u0131 \u00f6deme g\u00fcnleri, elektrik-do\u011falgaz faturalar\u0131, site ve muhasebeci aidatlar\u0131, SGK prim \u00f6demeleri hayat\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015fka hi\u00e7bir \u015feye bir ad\u0131ml\u0131k yer b\u0131rakmayacak bi\u00e7imde i\u015fgal etmi\u015f durumda vakti zaman\u0131nda ya\u015fam\u0131n yeg\u00e2ne manas\u0131 oldu\u011funu vaaz edip durdu\u011fum d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ve duygular\u0131n yerini \u00e7oktan beridir basit maddi zorunluluklar alm\u0131\u015f durumda. Ki\u015fi her ya\u015f\u0131n acemisi ben de san\u0131r\u0131m ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131n bu yeni evresine haz\u0131rl\u0131ks\u0131z yakaland\u0131m. Ve yine San\u0131r\u0131m bir kemale eremeden ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n kap\u0131ma dayanmas\u0131na hen\u00fcz hi\u00e7 haz\u0131r de\u011filim.<\/em><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n \u015e\u00f6yle ki \u00e7ok erken ya\u015flarda \u00f6l\u00fcm fikriyle bir miktar bilin\u00e7 d\u0131\u015f\u0131 bir bi\u00e7imde uzla\u015fm\u0131\u015f bu fikri kabullenmi\u015ftim. \u00d6l\u00fcm hi\u00e7bir zaman benim i\u00e7in bir endi\u015fe, korku nedeni olamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ne var ki ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131k fikri ondan hep ka\u00e7maya \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m; hi\u00e7bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc onunla bar\u0131\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir fenomen olageldi. \u0130\u015fte bu minval \u00fczre bu aralar kendimi ya\u015fam ve ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131k \u00fczerine s\u0131k\u00e7a d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrken buluyorum. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere kendimi kapt\u0131r\u0131p, dald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ise akl\u0131m hep ayn\u0131 iki \u015fark\u0131 ve biri k\u0131sa \u00f6yk\u00fc di\u011feri uzunca bir roman iki metne gidiyor. S\u00f6z konusu \u015fark\u0131lardan biri Livaneli\u2019nin \u2018\u2019Bir \u0130nsan \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fc Neye Vermeli\u2019\u2019 isimli par\u00e7as\u0131, di\u011feri Bob Dylan\u2019\u0131n \u2018\u2019Forever Young\u2019\u2019 isimli balad\u0131\u2026 Metinlerin \u00f6yk\u00fc olan\u0131 ise Borges\u2019in Kum Kitab\u0131ndaki \u2018\u2019\u00d6teki\u2019\u2019 ba\u015fl\u0131kl\u0131 k\u0131sa \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fc ve di\u011feri de Cervantes\u2019in Don Ki\u015fot\u2019u\u2026 T\u00fcm bunlar aras\u0131nda en fazla akl\u0131m\u0131 me\u015fgul eden ise elbette Cervantes\u2019in \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131r a\u00e7an roman\u0131 oluyor. Y\u0131llar boyunca gen\u00e7likle rab\u0131talayarak d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeye al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m Don Ki\u015fot\u2019u bunca y\u0131l\u0131n ard\u0131ndan art\u0131k ba\u015fka bir nahiyeden yeniden d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum.<\/em><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Evet, ger\u00e7ekten de Don Ki\u015fot benim i\u00e7in her zaman bir referans ve ilham kayna\u011f\u0131 olagelmi\u015ftir. On y\u0131llar \u00f6nce merak ve heyecanla ilk kez okudu\u011fumda asl\u0131nda bitirebilmek i\u00e7in kendimi epeyce zorlamam, sabr\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131namam gerekmi\u015fti. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr ki her zaman olduk\u00e7a sab\u0131rl\u0131 biriydim. \u0130lk y\u00fczeysel okumam\u0131n ard\u0131ndan Don Ki\u015fot muayyen olmayan aral\u0131klarla d\u00f6n\u00fcp dola\u015f\u0131p yeniden okudu\u011fum ba\u015fucu kitaplar\u0131mdan biri oldu. \u00d6yle ki havarice bir c\u00fcretle kendimi, hayat\u0131, d\u00fcnyay\u0131 hatta her \u015feyi d\u00fczeltebilece\u011fime dair budalaca bir c\u00fcretin itkisiyle maceraperestlik, serg\u00fcze\u015ftlik, flan\u00f6rl\u00fck ve serseriliklerle neredeyse beyhude ge\u00e7en gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131m\u0131n ard\u0131ndan 6 \u015eubat felaketinden evvel nihayet kendime ve d\u00fcnyal\u0131\u011f\u0131ma dair ger\u00e7ek bir \u015feyler yapmaya karar verip bir ev kurmaya karar verdi\u011fimde \u00f6zenle d\u00f6\u015fedi\u011fim evimdeki tek tablo oturma odas\u0131n\u0131n en uzun duvar\u0131n\u0131 boydan boya kaplayan Honore Daumier\u2019in Don Quixote ve Sancho Panza isimli tablosunun canvas bir replikas\u0131yd\u0131. 6 \u015eubat depremiyle \u00f6zen ve gayretle d\u00fczd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm evimin yerle bir olmas\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131ndan s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yeni odamdaki iki g\u00f6rselden biri yine eski bir dostumun \u00e7izip bana arma\u011fan etti\u011fi Picasso\u2019nun Don Ki\u015fot \u00e7izimi ve di\u011feri de Osihmen\u2019in ufak bir kartoneti… Velhas\u0131l Don Ki\u015fot ilk gen\u00e7lik y\u0131llar\u0131mdan bu erken ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131k y\u0131llar\u0131ma de\u011fin hep bana e\u015flik edegeldi. \u015eimdi bir kez daha yollara revan oldu\u011fum, izleklerimi yitirdi\u011fim son bir kur\u015fun ya da son bir bahar i\u00e7in medet umdu\u011fum bu g\u00fcnler de Don Ki\u015fot \u00fczerine \u00e7ok\u00e7a d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Bu sebeplerle s\u00f6zc\u00fcklerimi bulup bu metne ba\u015flayabilmek i\u00e7in m\u00fcracaat etti\u011fim ve bana c\u00f6mertlikle yard\u0131m eden muteber bir tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131n g\u0131yab\u0131nda sizlere Don Ki\u015fot\u2019la \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z uzun ve \u00e7etin ser\u00fcvenimizden ve \u015f\u00f6valyemizin benim i\u00e7in neler ifade etti\u011finden bahsetmek istiyorum. <\/em><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n S\u00f6ze iki ciltlik roman\u0131n binlerce sayfa i\u00e7erisinden ezbere bildi\u011fim ender pasajlardan biri olan ve y\u0131llar boyunca moral bir \u015fiar aforizmas\u0131 olarak hep akl\u0131mda tuttu\u011fum bir al\u0131nt\u0131yla ba\u015flamak isterim: \u2018Efendim, bu korkun\u00e7 ser\u00fcvene niye at\u0131lmak istiyorsunuz anlam\u0131yorum. Vakit gece, bizi g\u00f6ren yok; pek\u00e2l\u00e2 yolumuzu de\u011fi\u015ftirip tehlikeden ka\u00e7abilir, \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn susuz kalmaya g\u00f6ze alabiliriz; \u00fcstelik bizi g\u00f6ren olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6re, kimse bize korkak da diyemez.\u201d Bu k\u0131sa al\u0131nt\u0131 bana kalacak olursa Don Ki\u015fot\u2019un sal\u0131k verdi\u011fi t\u00fcm de\u011fer ve onun etraf\u0131nda sonradan in\u015fa edilen yine b\u00fct\u00fcn de\u011ferlerinin n\u00fcvesini, as\u0131l tinini ihtiva ediyor. <\/em><\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Elbette bunu kavrayabilmem \u015fu an ifade etti\u011fim kadar kolay olamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00d6yle ki <\/em>Don Ki\u015fot\u2019un iki sesli, \u00e7ifte anlat\u0131lar\u0131nda \/ser\u00fcvenlerinde her olay, her geli\u015fme, her s\u00fcrpriz evvela \u015f\u00f6valyenin ince, ilkeli retorik filtresinden ard\u0131ndan silahtar\u0131n kal\u0131n, kaba ve ger\u00e7ek\u00e7i filtresinden ge\u00e7er ya da bunun tam tersi olur. Bu i\u015fleyi\u015f arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 ile bir seste do\u011fru olan \u015feyin di\u011ferinde yalan bir di\u011ferinde yalan olan \u015feyin \u00f6tekinde do\u011fru oldu\u011fu te\u015fhis edebiliriz. Yine bu i\u015fleyi\u015fle her \u015feyin \u00f6n ve arka y\u00fcz\u00fc meydana \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f olur. Ancak ne var ki \u015e\u00f6valyemizin, b\u00f6ylelikle bilginin diyalekti\u011fini kurarak; basit bir g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u00fcn \u00f6tesinde ger\u00e7ekte inanc\u0131n boyunduru\u011funda yetkeye boyun e\u011fen insan yerine d\u00fcnyay\u0131 birden fazla bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131yla g\u00f6rebilen, ku\u015fkulanmaktan ve mu\u011flakl\u0131ktan \u00e7ekinmeyen; tutsakl\u0131\u011fa, haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa, \u00f6l\u00fcme\/ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131\u011fa ba\u015fkald\u0131ran; yanl\u0131\u015f oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bir olay kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda, kendi ba\u015far\u0131 \u015fans\u0131n\u0131n ne oldu\u011funa dair hesap yapmadan, m\u00fcdahalenin kendisine verebilece\u011fi zararlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeden dolays\u0131z bir di\u011ferkaml\u0131k ile eyleme ge\u00e7en ve g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6nlemeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan, ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 anlamaya\/anlamland\u0131rmaya gayret g\u00f6steren \u00f6zg\u00fcr insan\u0131 temsil etti\u011fini idrak edebilmem i\u00e7in uzun okumalar yapmam, aylar\u0131m\u0131 anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kitaplarla bo\u011fu\u015farak ge\u00e7irmem, diyalektik-materyalizm fikriyle ve devrimcilerle tan\u0131\u015fmam gerekmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yine \u015f\u00f6valyemizi ve anlat\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 kamilen anlamland\u0131rabilmem ve ger\u00e7ek yerine koyabilmem i\u00e7in <\/em>\u2018\u2018Bir kutupta servet birikimi ayn\u0131 anda \u00f6teki kutupta sefaletin, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma eziyetinin, k\u00f6leli\u011fin, cehaletin, canavarla\u015fman\u0131n, ahlaki \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn birikmesi oluyor\u2026\u201d<\/em> Tespitini isabetle yapan Karl Marx\u2019\u0131 az \u00e7ok \u00f6\u011frenebilmem, yar\u0131m yamalak da olsa anlayabilmem gerekmi\u015fti. Zira her \u015fey ancak tarihsel geli\u015fimi ve geli\u015fim i\u00e7indeki ba\u011flam\u0131yla anla\u015f\u0131labilir. Bir \u015feyi hakk\u0131yla bilebilmek i\u00e7in ona tesir eden onu \u00e7evreleyen bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015feyi de \u00f6\u011frenmeyi gerektirdi\u011fi b\u00f6ylelikle anlayabildim. Okuma ser\u00fcveninin i\u015fte b\u00f6yle bitmek bilmez s\u00fcrekli yeni ufuklar yeni kap\u0131lar a\u00e7an m\u00fcthi\u015f bir merak ve heyecan cezbesi vard\u0131r. \u015e\u00f6valyemizden ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m en b\u00fcy\u00fck derslerden biri de i\u015fte \u015f\u00fcphesiz bu hakikatti. Ancak bu bilgiye ve kavray\u0131\u015fa erebildi\u011fimde \u015f\u00f6valyemizin bir ahmaktan ziyade \u00e7a\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fan bir arif oldu\u011funu takdir edebilir oldum. Bunun i\u00e7in de bir yandan o talihli \u201dSiglo de Oro\u201d g\u00fcnlerinde ilimin ye\u015ferdi\u011fi, gemilerle Guadalqivir nehri \u00fczerinden \u201dyeni d\u00fcnyadan\u201d (!) \u00e7al\u0131n\u0131p ka\u00e7\u0131r\u0131lan alt\u0131n ve g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015flerin; krallar\u0131n, asilzadelerin, feodal beylerin, yeni zengin haliyle de yeni soylular\u0131n; saraylar\u0131na, \u015fatolar\u0131na, malik\u00e2nelerine, \u00e7iftliklerine akt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6te yandan k\u0131rsallar\u0131nda \u00f6zellikle End\u00fcl\u00fcs ve Katalan e\u015fk\u0131yalar\u0131n\u0131n hayat\u0131 katlan\u0131lmaz k\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131, engizisyonun, din sava\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n, salg\u0131n hastal\u0131klar\u0131n illetinde \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan yoksul halk\u0131n Katolik\u2019ten ba\u015fka din tan\u0131mayan krallar taraf\u0131ndan din nam\u0131na ate\u015flere g\u00f6nderildi\u011fi Orta\u00e7a\u011f \u0130spanya\u2019s\u0131 hakk\u0131nda fikir sahibi olmama gerekmi\u015fti. <\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n Dahas\u0131 ya\u015fl\u0131 \u015f\u00f6valyemizin akl\u0131, imgeleri, mant\u0131ks\u0131zl\u0131klar\u0131, r\u00fcyalar\u0131yla, kitaplar\u0131yla d\u00fcnyaya, ya\u015fam\u0131na anlam vermeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan yeni bir insan\u0131n mu\u015ftucusu oldu\u011funu onun d\u00fcnyadaki \u00e7e\u015fitlili\u011fi ve s\u00fcreklili\u011fi ve s\u00fcrekli d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc anlams\u0131zl\u0131kla de\u011fil insan\u0131n usunun anlamland\u0131rma yetisiyle kavramaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan, erdemlerinin, ideallerinin pe\u015finden giderken ku\u015fkulanmaktan, soru sormaktan geri kalmayan kavgas\u0131 ve hakl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u011fruna tehlikeye at\u0131lmaktan an olsun teredd\u00fct etmeyen bir kahraman olarak alg\u0131layabilmem i\u00e7in Sartre, Y\u0131lmaz G\u00fcney, Dostoyevski, Ernesto Guevara\u2018yla tan\u0131\u015fmam onlarla g\u0131yaben ahbap olmam gerekmi\u015fti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n E\u011fer ki Jean Paul Sartre\u2019\u0131n, Ayd\u0131nlar \u00fczerine ismiyle T\u00fcrk\u00e7ele\u015ftirilmi\u015f kitab\u0131nda\u201d Ayd\u0131n kendisini ilgilendirmeyen \u015feylere burnunu sokan ve k\u00fcresel insana dayatma yoluyla kabullendirilmi\u015f ger\u00e7eklerin ve bundan kaynaklanan davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131n t\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc sorgulama iddias\u0131nda olan biri\u201d<\/em> diyerek neredeyse dosdo\u011fru Don Ki\u015fot\u2019u tarif etti\u011fini okumam\u0131\u015f olsayd\u0131m. Y\u00fcce Dostoyevski\u2019nin\u201d Her insan herkes kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda her \u015feyden sorumludur.\u201d<\/em> Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan haberdar olmasayd\u0131m. K\u00fcba sazl\u0131klar\u0131nda, Angola Ormanlar\u0131nda ve Bolivya da\u011flar\u0131nda \u00e7antas\u0131nda kitaplar\u0131yla y\u00fcr\u00fcyen Ernesto Guevara\u2019n\u0131n bizzat ya\u015fam\u0131yla efsanevi ve ilham verici modern bir Don Ki\u015fot abidesine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc kavrayamasayd\u0131m. B\u00fcy\u00fck Sinemac\u0131 Y\u0131lmaz G\u00fcney\u2019in\u201d Salpa\u201d isimli muhte\u015fem k\u0131sa \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcnde\u201d hi\u00e7 \u00f6zg\u00fcr olmad\u0131 Salpa\u2026 Olamad\u0131. \u00d6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc tan\u0131yamad\u0131. Hayat\u0131n\u0131n birinci adam\u0131, egemeni, y\u00f6neticisi olmad\u0131 hi\u00e7. Hep komisyoncuydu\u2026 \u00f6zg\u00fcl, ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z, yi\u011fit bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi olamad\u0131 hi\u00e7\u2026\u201d<\/em> diye tarif etti\u011fi ve \u00f6yk\u00fc boyunca Don Ki\u015fot\u2019un erdem ve ideallerinin pe\u015finde y\u00fcr\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bu yoldaki m\u00fccadelelerini anlatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yk\u00fcn\u00fcn ana karakteri Mehmet Salpa \u2019ya:\u201d d\u00fcnyan\u0131n Don Ki\u015fot\u2019lara ihtiyac\u0131 var.\u201d<\/em> Dedirtti\u011fini okumam\u0131\u015f olsayd\u0131m. San\u0131r\u0131m ben de halen Ahmed Mithat Efendi gibi \u015e\u00f6valyemizi\u201d Don Ki\u015fot maceralar\u0131 dinleyenleri g\u00fclmekten k\u0131vrand\u0131racak tuhafl\u0131klar\u0131 olan\u201d<\/em> g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00e7 bir deli olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcr ve anlard\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Onun, \u2018\u2019cinnetinin derece-i kemalini bulmu\u015f\u201d<\/em> bir mecnun oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Don Ki\u015fot\u2019un d\u00fcnyaya iyilik yapmak i\u00e7in tehlikelere at\u0131lmas\u0131 bana da komik, ac\u0131nas\u0131 bir cinnet gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ben de kahraman\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ve yap\u0131p ettiklerini TDK s\u00f6zl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc gibi:\u201d gere\u011fi yokken kahramanl\u0131k g\u00f6stermeye kalk\u0131\u015fmak.\u201d<\/em> Ya da MEB T\u00fcrk\u00e7e s\u00f6zl\u00fckte ki gibi\u201d gereksiz ve yersiz yere yi\u011fitlik g\u00f6stermeye kalk\u0131\u015fmak\u201d<\/em> diye tarif ederdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Ama ne mutlu ki \u015e\u00f6valyemiz ve onun ilham etti\u011fi okuma ve ba\u015fkald\u0131rma a\u015fk\u0131yla ge\u00e7en y\u0131llar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan benim i\u00e7in Don Ki\u015fot\u2019luk: Bir yan\u0131na p\u00fcr-ne\u015fe banka reklamlar\u0131n\u0131n e\u015fli\u011finde canl\u0131 yay\u0131nda bombalanan \u015fehir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fclerinin, , uluslar \u00f6tesi \u015firket evliliklerinin, milyon dolarl\u0131k (hala) prens izdiva\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n, uzay seyyahlar\u0131n\u0131n, g\u00fcmr\u00fck muafiyetlerinin, vergi tenzilatlar\u0131n\u0131n, Yeltsin Multi-Milyarderlerinin, uluslar\u0131n raflardaki \u00fcr\u00fcn \u00e7e\u015fitlili\u011fi zenginli\u011finin d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, \u00f6te yan\u0131na g\u00fcnl\u00fck 1.5 dolar\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in salg\u0131n hastal\u0131klardan \u00f6len y\u00fczbinlerin, hi\u00e7 kimsenin m\u00fc\u015fterisi olamayacaklar\u0131 i\u00e7in derme \u00e7atma teknelerde denize d\u00f6k\u00fclenlerin, \u00e7ocuk i\u015f\u00e7ilerin, mesnetsiz etnik \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmalarda \u00e7ocuk sava\u015f\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n, manas\u0131zl\u0131k ve depresyon i\u00e7inde k\u0131vranan yaban ve yaln\u0131z milyonlarca beyaz yakal\u0131n\u0131n, devasa toplama kamplar\u0131nda muayyen aral\u0131klarla misket bombalar\u0131na, gazlara bo\u011fulanlar\u0131n, g\u00fcneyden g\u00f6\u00e7erek metropol gettolar\u0131na dolu\u015fan orada hukuksuzlu\u011fa, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcmeye terk edilen \u00f6fkeli ve yoksul g\u00f6\u00e7menlerin, onlar\u0131n \u00fcrk\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc ve refah devletinin onlarca y\u0131l verdi\u011fi umudun ard\u0131ndan \u201dola\u011fanla\u015fan\u201d ekonomik ola\u011fan \u00fcst\u00fc durumun etkisiyle pagan d\u00f6nemi kavim ihtiyatlar\u0131na d\u00f6nen metropol kentlilerinin d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc, S\u0131n\u0131r tan\u0131maz s\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u00fcreselle\u015fme ad\u0131yla sayg\u0131nla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131, kazan\u00e7 ve stat\u00fc h\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131n, bireylerin yeg\u00e2ne do\u011fal ve me\u015fru davran\u0131\u015f bi\u00e7imi olarak neredeyse bir insanl\u0131k de\u011feri mertebesine y\u00fckseldi\u011fi, k\u00f6\u015feyi d\u00f6nmecili\u011fin, avantac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n sayg\u0131nla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131; i\u015fsizlik ve yoksullu\u011fun ki\u015fisel bir ba\u015far\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa indirgendi\u011fi; s\u0131radan insanlar\u0131n \u00e7aresizlik i\u00e7inde h\u00fccrelerine kapand\u0131\u011f\u0131, k\u00f6ktencili\u011fe, \u015fovenizme, tahripk\u00e2r, nihilist ak\u0131mlara savruldu\u011fu bu d\u00fcnyada merak etmekten, soru sormaktan, heyecanlanmaktan vazge\u00e7memektir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Don Ki\u015fot\u2019luk benim i\u00e7in: Bu kokmu\u015flar mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n y\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131k panay\u0131r\u0131na edecek iki \u00e7ift laf\u0131 olmakt\u0131r. Ba\u015fka bir d\u00fcnyan\u0131n ancak kendinden do\u011fabilece\u011fini bilmek, hayat\u0131n edilgen bir seyircisi olmay\u0131, salt bir m\u00fc\u015fteri derekesine indirgenmeyi reddetmektir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Benim i\u00e7in Don Ki\u015fot, \u0130natla, h\u00fclyayla, a\u015fkla ama \u00f6nce a\u015fkla ve hep a\u015fkla sadece kendi i\u00e7in de\u011fil daha \u00e7ok insan i\u00e7in mutlulu\u011fu \u00e7o\u011faltman\u0131n ve b\u00f6ylece hep gen\u00e7 kalabilmenin ad\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Vesselam<\/p>\n\n\n\n Nisan \u201926 \/ D\u00d6RTYOL<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Mustafa Kemal Ers\u00f6z \u2018\u2019 Yanm\u0131\u015f bir bilete, olas\u0131l\u0131klara ve bir tan\u0131d\u0131\u011fa\u2019\u2019 Bu metin \u00fczerine \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flamadan \u00f6nce bir m\u00fchlet g\u00fcne\u015fin alt\u0131nda oturdum. G\u00fcne\u015fi g\u00f6rd\u00fc m\u00fc bir tabure bulup g\u00fcne\u015flenmek ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131k alametlerinden biri olsa gerek zira eskiye nazaran daha \u00e7ok \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorum. H\u00fclasa nisan g\u00fcne\u015finin teredd\u00fctt\u00fc kemiklerimi \u0131s\u0131t\u0131rken kendimi bir kez daha ge\u00e7mi\u015fin muhasebesine, m\u00fcstakbelin hesab\u0131na […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1528,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"tdm_status":"","tdm_grid_status":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-1525","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-kultur"},"yoast_head":"\n