M\u00fcsl\u00fcm Kabaday\u0131<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Eskiden \u015fehrin merkezindeydim, Asi Nehri\u2019ne \u00e7ok yak\u0131nd\u0131m. Yan taraf\u0131mdaki kamyon garaj\u0131 da bir taraf\u0131 kiremitli \u00e7at\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda uzan\u0131rd\u0131. \u015eehirliler kadar k\u00f6yl\u00fcler de fokur fokur kaynard\u0131 i\u00e7imde. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 okula, askere u\u011furlayanlar m\u0131 dersiniz; \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak i\u00e7in ba\u015fka \u015fehirlere, hatta \u00fclkelere gidenler mi\u2026 dolup ta\u015fard\u0131m. \u0130l\u00e7elere, k\u00f6ylere giden minib\u00fcsler de de\u011fi\u015fik yerlerimden harekete ge\u00e7erlerdi. Lazkiye ve Halep\u2019e yolcu ta\u015f\u0131yan taksicilerin balland\u0131rarak anlatt\u0131klar\u0131 an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 yazan bir kalem ne zaman \u00e7\u0131kacak diye merak ve hu\u015fu i\u00e7inde nas\u0131l bekledi\u011fimi, anlatmam m\u00fcmk\u00fcn m\u00fc\u2026 \u201cReyhaniye Reyhaniye!\u201d diye Reyhanl\u0131\u2019ya gidecek yolcular\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran iri c\u00fcssesi, esmer teni, kal\u0131n ka\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki iri g\u00f6zleriyle herkesin dikkatini \u00fczerine \u00e7eken kad\u0131n, belle\u011fimden hi\u00e7 silinmedi. Kimler, neler gelip ge\u00e7medi ki benim i\u00e7imden\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ha, unutmadan s\u00f6yleyeyim, sadece insanlar\u0131 yolculamazd\u0131m uzaklara; teneke teneke tuzlu yo\u011furtlar, bidon bidon zeytinya\u011flar\u0131, kutu kutu sal\u00e7alar, torba torba zahterler, kasa kasa mandalina ve portakallar da i\u00e7imden ge\u00e7ip bagajlarda yola \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131. Ba\u015fka \u015fehirde okuyan Hatayl\u0131 \u00f6\u011frencilere bo\u015funa \u201ckoliyle beslenen, koloni halinde ya\u015fayanlar\u201d denmedi\u011fini, en iyi ben bilirim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Beni yirmi y\u0131l \u00f6nce K\u0131z\u0131lda\u011f taraf\u0131na ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131lar. Merkezden uzak oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in \u00f6nceleri \u015fehirleraras\u0131 yolcular d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda bana u\u011frayan pek olmuyordu. Son y\u0131llarda mantar gibi \u00e7\u0131kan y\u00fcksek binalarla, p\u0131trak gibi \u00e7o\u011falan al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f merkezleriyle \u015fehir h\u0131zla benden tarafa da b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc. Adliye binas\u0131, okullar \u00e7evre yoluna ta\u015f\u0131nd\u0131. Yolcu profilim de de\u011fi\u015fmeye ba\u015flad\u0131 tabi. Suriye\u2019den sava\u015f ve ba\u015fka nedenlerle gelenlerin de kahr\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ekiyorum on y\u0131ld\u0131r. Nelerle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmad\u0131m, kimlerle kayna\u015fmad\u0131m, \u00e7o\u011fu kere de \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmad\u0131m ki\u2026 Hani i\u00e7imi de\u015fseler, her ta\u015f\u0131mdan, beton duvarlar\u0131mdan ve kubbemden nice hayatlar f\u0131\u015fk\u0131r\u0131r. \u0130nsan, hayvan, bitki ve e\u015fya \u00f6yk\u00fclerinin \u00f6rg\u00fcleri i\u00e7inize i\u015fler G\u00f6beklitepe\u2019dekiler gibi. Ha, \u201cNiye At\u00e7ana\u2019dakilerin suyu mu \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131?\u201d diyeceksiniz; onlar benim topra\u011f\u0131mda zaten\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kadim kentim Antakya, kuruldu\u011fundan beri verimli topraklar\u0131 ve \u00fcretken insanlar\u0131yla depremlerin, sava\u015flar\u0131n y\u0131k\u0131mlar\u0131ndan k\u00fcllerinden do\u011fan Anka ku\u015fu gibi kurtuldu. Bin bir nedenle topraklar\u0131na, Uzun\u00e7ar\u015f\u0131\u2019s\u0131na, meltemle serinleyen darac\u0131k sokaklar\u0131na gelenleri Akdeniz s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla kar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. Her d\u00f6nemde yeni gelenler, kentimin kadim karde\u015flik k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcyle ortakla\u015ft\u0131lar. Alt\u0131 \u015eubat, son y\u0131k\u0131m, \u00f6ncekilerden \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 bir d\u00f6nemde binalar\u0131n \u00e7o\u011funu, ya\u015fam kaynaklar\u0131n\u0131 yerle bir etti; \u00fcretken insanlar\u0131 aram\u0131zdan ald\u0131, kurtulanlar\u0131 da ba\u015fka kentlere savurdu. G\u00fcnlerce \u201cDevlet nerede?\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131ranlar\u0131n, enkazlarda kurtar\u0131lmay\u0131 bekleyenlerin, ya\u011fmur alt\u0131nda ve dondurucu so\u011fukta kaderine terk edilenlerin feryatlar\u0131n\u0131, isyanlar\u0131n\u0131 iliklerime kadar hissettim. Alt\u0131 \u015eubat y\u0131k\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n, daha \u00f6nceki depremlerden farkl\u0131 bir d\u00f6nemde ger\u00e7ekle\u015fti\u011finden s\u00f6z etmemin nedenine gelince\u2026 Y\u0131k\u0131m\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fckl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne yol a\u00e7an su\u00e7(lu)lar bir yana, evlerin ve i\u015fyerleri kadar ac\u0131lar\u0131n da ac\u0131mas\u0131zca ya\u011fmaland\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir d\u00f6nemden s\u00f6z ediyorum. Do\u011funun krali\u00e7esi kentim, ilk kez b\u00f6yle bir ya\u011fmayla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131yor. Ta\u015f ocaklar\u0131yla da\u011flar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u011fr\u0131 deliniyor, beton santrallar\u0131yla ya\u015fama zehir sa\u00e7\u0131l\u0131yor. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00c7\u00fcr\u00fcmenin do\u011fan\u0131n ve toplumun atardamarlar\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bir d\u00f6nemde, \u00fc\u00e7 konu\u011fum var kubbemin alt\u0131nda. Bekleme salonunda birbirinden habersiz oturuyorlar. \u015eu otob\u00fcs yaz\u0131hanelerinin tam kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndaki bankta oturan ve \u00f6n\u00fcnde iki valizi olan ba\u015f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131k ve k\u0131sa kollu, \u015f\u0131k elbiseli kad\u0131n Ankara\u2019l\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. Burada \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir uzman \u00e7avu\u015fla evliymi\u015f. G\u00f6zlerinden okudu\u011fuma g\u00f6re, b\u00fcy\u00fck umutlarla gelmi\u015f Asi\u2019nin k\u0131y\u0131lar\u0131na. Kentimin do\u011fas\u0131na, insan\u0131na, k\u00fclt\u00fcr\u00fcne hayran olmu\u015f. E\u015fine, buradan ev al\u0131p yerle\u015fmeyi \u00f6nermi\u015f. Kocas\u0131n\u0131n ailesi bask\u0131n gelmi\u015f. Onu elinden alm\u0131\u015flar. O da, \u201cY\u00fcre\u011fi bende kalmayanla ne i\u015fim olabilir,\u201d demi\u015f. Ba\u015fkente d\u00f6nmek i\u00e7in iki valizine doldurmu\u015f e\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131, solu\u011fu bende alm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Telefonla konu\u015fan siyah giysili kad\u0131n m\u0131? \u0130\u00e7lerinde biraz ya\u015fl\u0131 olan o. Urfal\u0131 oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor. K\u0131rp\u0131k g\u00f6zlerinden duvarlar\u0131ma f\u0131\u015fk\u0131ran bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kadar\u0131yla e\u015fitlenemeyen t\u00fcm kad\u0131nlar\u0131n isyan\u0131n\u0131 damar\u0131nda ta\u015f\u0131yor. Dokuz \u00e7ocuk d\u00fcnyaya getirdikten sonra kocas\u0131 onun \u00fczerine kuma getiriyor. O da bir g\u00fcn kocas\u0131ndan habersiz bir ev tutuyor ve \u00e7ocuklar\u0131yla oraya ta\u015f\u0131n\u0131yor. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n elinden i\u015f geldi\u011fi i\u00e7in onlar, evin ge\u00e7imini sa\u011flamaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131yorlar. S\u00f6yle(n)di\u011fine g\u00f6re bug\u00fcn Urfa\u2019ya gidip oradaki yak\u0131nlar\u0131yla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fecekmi\u015f. \u0130sot ve ba\u015fka ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131p gelecekmi\u015f. \u0130\u00e7indeki ac\u0131 volkan\u0131n\u0131 nerede, kime, nas\u0131l bo\u015faltaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilememenin tedirginli\u011fiyle oturdu\u011fu yerden kalk\u0131p ortal\u0131kta dolan\u0131yor.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Elindeki telefona bakan, siyah pantolon giyen kad\u0131n m\u0131? O en gen\u00e7leri. B\u00f6yle dedi\u011fime bakmay\u0131n. Be\u015f \u00e7ocuk annesiymi\u015f. Suriye\u2019liymi\u015f. E\u015fi ve \u00e7ocuklar\u0131yla \u0130skenderun\u2019da ya\u015farken, kocas\u0131n\u0131n \u015fiddeti bedenini hamura \u00e7evirmi\u015f. Dayanamay\u0131nca polise ba\u015fvurmu\u015f. Bir hafta kadar s\u0131\u011f\u0131nma evinde kalm\u0131\u015f. Kendini yeterince ifade edemedi\u011finden, B\u00fcy\u00fck \u0130skender ad\u0131na kurulan ve \u00e7ok renkli ya\u015fam\u0131na al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 liman kentinden ayr\u0131lmaya karar vermi\u015f. Akrabalar\u0131 Erzurum\u2019a yerle\u015ftiklerinden, onlar\u0131n yan\u0131na gitmek i\u00e7in bekleme salonuma damlam\u0131\u015f. O da gelece\u011finin belirsizli\u011fini nas\u0131l ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa kavu\u015fturaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnen beyninin karma\u015f\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla otob\u00fcs\u00fcn kalk\u0131\u015f saatini bekliyordu. Banka oturdu\u011fundan beri kubbeme bakan s\u00fcrmeli g\u00f6zlerinden anl\u0131yorum ki, i\u015fgal edilen topraklar\u0131nda can\u0131n\u0131 son anda kurtar\u0131p geldi\u011fi kadim kentimde ya\u011fmurdan ka\u00e7\u0131p doluya tutulmu\u015f gibi hissediyordu kendisini. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
En \u00e7ok kad\u0131nlar\u0131n ve \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n halleri duvarlar\u0131ma, tavan\u0131ma, taban\u0131ma, kap\u0131ma ve camlar\u0131ma nak\u015folur. Bu nak\u0131\u015flarda a\u015fk olur, e\u015fk olur. Kavu\u015fmalar kadar ayr\u0131l\u0131klar da nak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ma renk verir. Renklerin her tonu, tonlarca laf\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcr. \u00dc\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n bug\u00fcnk\u00fc nak\u015f\u0131ma verip gittikleri renk, ana ac\u0131ma denk\u2026 Alt \u015eubat \u00f6ncesi, onlar gibi nice ac\u0131larla yo\u011frulmu\u015f kad\u0131na yuva olup ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 dindirecek ocaklar\u0131m\u0131 t\u00fctt\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Her dem ye\u015fil zeytin ve defne yapraklar\u0131mla, onlar\u0131n ya\u011flar\u0131yla ya\u015fama sevin\u00e7le sar\u0131lmalar\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flard\u0131m. \u00c7i\u00e7ekli bah\u00e7elerim, beyaz alt\u0131nl\u0131 tarlalar\u0131m, ceylanl\u0131 da\u011flar\u0131m, demir \u00e7elikli fabrikalar\u0131m, \u00e7ok dilli \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131mla burkulmu\u015f y\u00fcreklerine su serperdim. Ya\u011fma ve y\u0131k\u0131m d\u00f6nemimdeyse\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Depremden bu yana, do\u011fan\u0131n sanc\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 anlayamayanlar\u0131n y\u00fcreklere sard\u0131klar\u0131 ac\u0131larla \u00fc\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131n nak\u0131\u015flar\u0131mdaki ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n ayn\u0131 damardan beslendi\u011fini fark ettim. Kir\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bir \u015feyi daha fark ettim. Bu kir, son olarak bende temizlenecektir.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
M\u00fcsl\u00fcm Kabaday\u0131 Eskiden \u015fehrin merkezindeydim, Asi Nehri\u2019ne \u00e7ok yak\u0131nd\u0131m. Yan taraf\u0131mdaki kamyon garaj\u0131 da bir taraf\u0131 kiremitli \u00e7at\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda uzan\u0131rd\u0131. \u015eehirliler kadar k\u00f6yl\u00fcler de fokur fokur kaynard\u0131 i\u00e7imde. \u00c7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 okula, askere u\u011furlayanlar m\u0131 dersiniz; \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmak i\u00e7in ba\u015fka \u015fehirlere, hatta \u00fclkelere gidenler mi\u2026 dolup ta\u015fard\u0131m. \u0130l\u00e7elere, k\u00f6ylere giden minib\u00fcsler de de\u011fi\u015fik yerlerimden harekete ge\u00e7erlerdi. Lazkiye […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":654,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"tdm_status":"","tdm_grid_status":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-653","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-kultur"},"yoast_head":"\n